Reflections on 2014 - Learning to Trust MySelf

Growing up, it was made crystal clear to me that I was not to trust myself.  This led to second-guessing myself as a "natural" part of my life since childhood. Confidence?  Nah, I had very very little to none.  I was too busy picking my flaws apart, hiding them from everyone else, being too afraid to speak much for fear of judgment and shame, and definitely never trusting myself to follow through with anything I might want to do, such as losing weight.  It never failed.  I'd start a healthier path, a little bit of exercise... and then I'd stop.  I sure followed through with not following through, that's something anyway right?!  I jest... :)

It's only been in the past 5-6 years that I've begun to tentatively trust myself. To follow through with what I promised myself I'd do, to prove to myself that I am in fact trustworthy and reliable, to myself.  I give someone else my word, I generally follow through.  I started figuring out that it's high time I do the very same for myself.  Bit by bit, I'm sticking by my promises to myself.

And so throughout this journey, I've set goals for myself.  I've achieved some, I've fallen far short of others.  Throughout it all though, is a dogged determination to follow through with what I set out to achieve.  I won't let anyone -- least of all mySELF -- to stop me, ever again.  That's a promise I keep from here until the end.  I now know what I can accomplish when I set my mind to it and don't let myself back down or back out. 

2014 alone has brought with it such tremendous opportunity for growth, expansion, confidence-building and so much more.  It was about a year ago that I began working as part of the Pillai Center team (you can find me managing their Facebook page).  It's also been almost a year ago that I signed on as a Team Beachbody coach.  And what a difference these two occurrences alone have made!

Throughout 2014 I've pushed myself to handle more and more responsibility, to figure out along the way how to handle it all, how to "fit it all in", how to put myself out there in to situations that are good for me but that also scare the pants right off me!  How to keep my word and run my business(es) effectively, how to ask for help when I need it and how to communicate more confidently and effectively. And so very much more.  I'm definitely a FAR more confident being than I was a mere 12 months ago.

This is why I'm so very excited about what 2015 will bring.  I have big plans, high hopes and farfetched dreams to chase.

And I hope you'll continue journeying with me...

Tell me, what are your thoughts on the year coming to a close and the year about to begin?

Love,
Chandra